Terhenti lamunan

I got exam lagi 2 weeks tapi apa yang masuk dalam pale otak is only rubbish. Eyh tak bek cakap camni. Dia tarik balek kang, menganga kau kate rubbish kan. Haih. I stay late at night dengan harapan what gets inside atleast 70% input but failed. Failed only because my own weaknesses. Penatlah. Penat. Penat. Seriously kalau dapat nak blurt it out, I would. Tapi tak boleh. Hoh Hoh Hoh. Its so pathetic when you live in your own world. Sad eyh.

I only ada a few wishes. To refresh my mind and wake up with a new memory yang da already stuffed with sume medic knowledge. No need to read tonnes of lecture notes that drive me insane. To have a strong will to delete all of them. So I would never have even a piece of that memories. To become a jellyfish which doesn't have a heart. Best kan? Tapi dia takde brain jugak. Hurmm. I might consider to become a jellyfish later lah.

Dan paling penting for now, is to start again studying. Study sampai mati! OUh yeahhh. Itu motto hidup saya yang baru. Gila semangatkan saya. Heh.

I miss you 1, I miss you 2, I miss you 3, I miss all of you! Eyh, extra rindu for Winnu sb siang tadi I heard a voice exactly like her. Tros text Winnu. Rindulahhhh :(

after this nak start letak title dengan number lah. Da keje asek nak update blog je. Baek buat macam diary kan. Mudah~

you know I don't mean this

Pergilah mati!

Okay dah. Dah cakap dah.

random

Okay sudah tak boleh trime akal dah baca endocrine ni. Seperti mao memuntahkan segalah. Bluekssss. Amun Amun Amun! hahaha. Mao menulis secara random. Pertama, I ate alot today sebab masakan sungguh menepati selera. Sayur campur goreng belacan, ayam kurma, and ikan masin. Fuh, bayangkan kuah ayam kurma tu letak kicap manis cap kipas udang kat nasi, amek sket sayur rasa belacan and cubit sket ikan masin. Terbaek dari ladang wohhhh. Tak macam 4x tambah plak kan. No wonder gemok! Mok Mok Mok. Time kasih housemate sebab masak ye.

Yang kedua, menonton kembali Nur Kasih. Huiyo gila sedey tengok gadis santek seperti Nur nges teresak-esak. Feeling masuk dengan pantas. Cuba kalau gadis huduh seperti saya ni menanges. Mesti tade sape nak kasihan kan? Kurang hajar! Hahaha. Takpe, tak marah sebab saya rasa itu realiti. Ke aku je y rasa camtu sebab dlu nges tersedu-sedu hingus bila tengok 1 litre of tears. Cantik wohh tapi berpenyakit. Cite tu based on true story. Bila aku tengok part yang kua pempuan sebenar yang kurang cantik tu, rasa sedih pon berkurangan. Gila diskriminasi! Perangai-perangai.

Ouh btw setelah menonton Nur Kasih untuk minggu ke 25 and tinggal tunggu last eipsode je nextweek, apa yang dapat sorang housemate saya ni simpulkan adalah "Dua adik beradik ni memang susah betul nak dapat anak kan" Huahuahua. Bingung! Betul juga. Adam pon tak dapat-dapat je anak dengan Nur. Aidil gak. tapi perlu ke???

Yang ketiga, tiba-tiba saya merasakan mungkin ada yang salah paham dengan apa yang saya telah tulis sebelum ini. Menurut pertanyaan beberapa orang kawan saya serius rasa ada salah paham. Tapi tak mengapalah. Takde benda pon. Tapi sesungguhnya, assumption is the biggest enemy in judging a situation. Sbb ppl tend to believe on what they have assumed. Hoh bahaya ni bahaya. We are good. :) What you see on surface might not reflect what happen inside it.

Yang keempat, I really kene change my bioclock. I sleep almost 12 hours a day. Gila weh. Gila. Since malam da start early agak-agak pukul 4 lbey camtu, pukul 8 saya da terbungkang tidur sebab sangat ngantok. Haiyo. I hate winter. Sejuk tido banyak makan banyak sume lah. All equal to Mok mok. =_=.

Yang kelima, tiba-tiba saya baru realized I might have overlooked a friend because I asek nak pk sorang ni je. You always teman me. Thank you. Mengarut ibarat cencurut perkara biasa dilakukan bila mata suda mengntok dan cakap merapik-rapik macam kene rasuk dan ni.

Yang keenam,saya tertdo ketika type entry ni. Hoh, tak senonoh punya anak dara. Anyway, tiba-tiba saya rasa blog saya mendapat kunjungan dari unfamiliar place. Hurmm.

Truly Sorry

Something might be better left unsaid
I ain't no perfect
The way I put them into words might hurt you
my intention is only one
to make it better
:(

I might have taken a wrong action
Truly sorry
I didn't make it better

=_=

confuse

If only I have guts to ask you people,

All these while, are you telling me the truth or lies?
Do you feel how awkward the situation is? The way I feel it now. Its hard when you sit somewhere in between. You keep looking on both side. Where should I begin with? Its either I'll make it better or turn it 180 degrees downward.
You really don't give a damn right? Its not I am the one who allow all these to happen kn? I've did tried. If you notice. Even I myself feel like I don't act how I am supposed to act. I sell my ego. But in return you gave me a slap on my face. Like I said, never asking for more.
Or it's your nature?

I will ask all above for myself, my own satisfaction.

If only, if only I got my guts to ask you people.

All I need to do now, is breathe in and breathe out for 2mins

Sangat banyak lecture notes kena revise. And it's about 2 weeks left. Gila, gila, gila. Please la weh. Brain ni kecik je dow. Tapi kau nak sumbat segala benda merepek tu okay tak merepek pon senanya in this tiny compartment. Gila ke pe? Gila la dol. Basal ganglia, granulamatos Brocha's Area wtf wtf wtf. (wtf=what the fish!)

Baiklah, sila bawak bertendang dila. Anda boleh. ANDA BOLEH! hoh hoh hoh. So now its time to buang je kau yang menyemak dalam kepala aku ni. Kau menyemak okay. MENYEMAK! I won't give a damn anymore. Suka hatilahhh. Suka hati suka hati yang penting kita happy, happy~

MED ni sumpah da macam WATAPAK! Banyak giler okayyyy. Banyak gila. Paham tak perkataan banyak gila tu camne? Infinate! Gila tipu +_+. Tolonglah dow. Asal amek medic? Asal? ASAL?! Kepala gila nak suh aku hafal sume ni. Huahuahua.

Okay mari bertendang selama 5min dan saya akan continue entry watafish ini after ni. Gaya sudah kelihatan seperti gadis desa yang hilang kawalan lalu berlarian di tepian pantai. Yeah, ni lah gaya manusia yang dikatakan little girl go crazy. Gila little aku. Gemuk! Hoh.

Bertendang, bertendang. Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. HUHHHH.

okay dah. dah okay kot. Continue reading all these F notes.

last word and forgive me for saying this. WTF kau!!!!! ( soon if I regret this, it wont appear on this entry, harharhar)

=_=

8.15pm

People have limit in their patience. It's not like pain anymore. It turns out anger. Tired of letting a space to be hurted. An advice of friend should be taken. People change. Its a norm.No matter how bad you don't want them to happen, no matter how hard you try to avoid, the fact is still the same. You choose, whether you want to be a person who can't be moved and end up nowhere or held you chin up and moving on.

Choose.

I wish I could hold my promises. I wish you could too.

Right now, I just wanna coil under my duvet

Somehow it does make me feel the way I felt before. Create a smile without I notice myself was smiling. Putting my mind wanders along the way. :)

p/s: I really should be studying now. Deactivate anything yang distracting. Put more focus. Level up some confidence in myself. Appreciate whos worth to be appreciated. Say no to chocolate in the middle of a night. =_=

agak-agak final bukan lagi 3 minggu, 2012 babeh!

Happy Birthday Amirah!

Intro intro. Semalam celebrate Amirah's 20th Birthday kat WhiteOak, Aliyah's house. Best plak maen dance mats tu. Tapi sumpah bengong bab dancing-dancing ni. Otak blur nak coordinate lower limb. kahkahkah. Tapi ni kalau sape nak kurus memang terbaek wok. Kalaulah aku come across game ni da lama beli masa cuti last summer. Berguna gak PS dekyap. Heh.

Agak-agak bape kilos bole turun nih kalau maen hari-hari? Hurm....

Okay, after suprise birthday party tu, kami bergerak ke city nak tengok 2012. Plan tengok 6.40pm musnah bila ticket sold out. Hoh. Ramai gila nak tengok since die released semalam. Nak masuk dalam pon satu hal sebab free-sitting terpaksa beratur. Eyh bukan beratur pon. Berterabur. Hoh. Ouh ha. Sebab terpaksa tunggu 7.40pm aku and tyra g maen games initial D. haha. Saya menang okay! keh3

ha.keja dia, keja dia.Cmon babeh!

Yeah! The smell of victory. Kehkehkeh

Hah. Itu dia, drift drift.

Tapi ni first time aku tertido dalam movie. Cite best tapi sumpah ngantok. Da pegi tengok time tido aku sape suro kan?! HEH. Aku tengok awal and part dramatic end end die tu. Drama jugak lah last-last tu. Sebek tak tido lame-lame. Kalo tak membazir 8.30euro. Huh.

Bila tengok movie it reminds me of having great time kat homesweethome. The smell of popcorns, carik movie apa best, dalam movie, maen games after tu. sedey sedey. Saya mahu pulang. +__+

=_=

Rindunyaaa

wekwekwek

Gear up!

Risau risau dan risau.

Risau sebab aku masih lagi guna gear 1. Slow motion je ha. Bila nak gear 5 ni wehhhh?!! Selalu macam ni kan dla. Bila da ada pressure baru ar kau nak speed guna gear 5. Sekarang terhegeh-hegeh. Buat perangai juga seperti tak attend lecture arini.

Apa kau ingat jumaat cuti umum ke?!

Bukan taknak attend lecture endocrine tapi tak paham kalau pemberi lecture adalah newholmes. Huaahh. Anda macam mumbling okay. Buat saya mengantuk.

tyra kate lecture bkn newholmes and arini lecture testis. Nampaknya saya harus pergi skrang juga walaopon da lmbat! kahkahkah

Nak tengok 2012.

Thank you :)

Bila taw duet bakal melayang sebanyak 240euro lebih kuranglah, keciwa teramat tapi pura-pura taknak pikir sudah kan. Otak fikir takpe takpe, there's must be a reason why it happened. Mesti ada salah yang aku buat sampai jadi macam tu. Cuba redha, cuba cuba.

Tapi bak kata mat saleh,

Every cloud has its silver lining.
:)

Saya jumpa penyelesaian alkisah merembat kembali rambler-17days-left saya tanpa perlu membayar 50 euro dan yang penting TAK MASUK COURT kahkahkah tak lawak. hoh. Saya g wat Student Travel Card on the same day iaitu semalam amek balek rambler saya. Hehe. Sepatutnya kaunter buat Student Travel Card adalah sebelah kaunter nak claim. Tapi sebab confirm-confirm kantoi kalau buat kat tempat yang sama, sanggup hoh pegi Trinity buat STD. Then baru Dublin Bus tuk claim my rambler.

Cuak juga kalau diorg check valid date card tu. Nampak sangat tipu sebab baru buat today kan. Aku gagah perkasakan juga muka ku buat ala-ala xbersalah sambil dalam hati berdoa 345x dia tak check valid date. Kalau tak bukan setakat masuk court je aku rasa, mau nye sumbat jail tros. Haha. Cite nak kasi haru je kan. Ceh.

'Hi, I've been fined before because I didn't bring my STD. I wanna claim it back and here is my STD", Muka senyum sikit je bajet serious sket. Padahal takut kantoi. :D

Nampak macam busy je minah ni. Dia teros amek and g check my rambler. Yey, akhirnya saya dapat kembali rambler saya! Berada di awang-awangan. Dyla, sila turun sekarang juga. :) :) :)

Dan ini bermakna Im not gonna lose my 50euro and yang penting I got back my 17days-left-rambler which cost 40euro. Dapat email dari Encik Kamis juga cakap kalau saya takde resit tuk claim Garda tu, kalau saya guna credit/debit card boleh check bank statement juga if it stated there I pernah made payment 150euro for Garda and dia akan tolong endorse my bank statement for the lost receipt. Pheww. Baru teringat. Nasib baik guna debit card. Atleast ada gak statement baya Garda tu. Kalau baya cash, sah sah tak dapat claim. Berharap ini juga dapat claim. Huu

Macam tak percaya. Otak dah siap sedia tuk kehilangan 240euro and Allah swt give it back to me. Bersyukur. Amat. Thank you Allah swt.

Pengajaran hari semalam,

If you think you're losing something, bare in mind there must be a reason why it happen. He may grant you more than what you have now. And I think Im losing you. Huu

p/s: Sorry sbb tunggu aku nak wat sama and ended up lain pulak. I felt bad tapi taktaw how to say it depan-depan. So here it goes. Sorry :(

Farah athirah jom masuk court!

Farah Athirah jom masuk court!

Hoh. Hari ni saya dapat surat chenta. Bukan senang okay nak dapat surat kat sini. Kalau ada pon da hafal sampul surat bank statement je salu. Tapi hari ni saya dapat sampul lain dari hari lain. Bentuknya yang panjang memang memberi kelainan.

"Dila, ko dapat suratlah", Marsh.

Aku malas nak amek port sebab salu sure surat bank. Malas nak turun so macam "Ouh yeah?" dan berlalu pergi.

"Tapi sampul dia lainlah",Marsh.

Erk. tros pecut 100m nak tengok surat ape. Sumpah tipu. Eyh aah tyra pon dapat. Yey yey. Dapat surat chenta. haha

Punyalah aku semangat nak bukak tapi aku da jangka musibah bakal melanda bila aku nampak surat tu kaler KUNING tatkala ku koyakkan sampul itu. Otak aku pikir kalau kuning tak pon merah sure mengundang musibah. Macam red and yellow card jugak. Hobin jang hobin!! eyh tiba-tiba. Menyemak sket sini, I orang nogori okay. Yang menang bola Piala Malaysia tahun ni tu. Hua3. Tak sure piala apa pon senanye. hoh .Okay okay dah. Sesat da ni, kembali ke pangkal jalan.

Surat dia berbunyi begini,

Dear Ms Nor Dahla Sharasuddin,

........ Court preceedings will be instituted against you if payment is not received within 21 days of the date issue of the Standart Fare. Your payment should be made by 12 November 2009.

Meh aku balas surat chenta Encik Bus-tard ni. Eyh tak baek mencarut.

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Hi sayang,

Nama I bukan Dahla and nama bapak I pon bukan Sharasuddin. You salah orang ke? Sedih la I camni Encik Policeman sexy tak eja nama I betul-betul. Kalau I baya dengan kasih sayang je boleh tak ganti 50euro tu? Kasih sayang I jaoh lebih bernilai dan berharga okay. +____+ Kita date esok k.

IMY

Hugs and kisses,
sayang.

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HUH! Dah la eja nama aku salah. Nama aku Nor Dalila Shamsuddin okay. Lempang kang! Eyh aku plak marah da. Sape yang buat salah dulu? TETTT! tekan buzzer sape nak jawab. Btw sequal kejadian ni sebab kesah 3 minggu yang lalu. Ni dia aku penah cite dlu Karangan Spm Paper 2.
Nampaknya saya bernaseb malang okay. Melayang juga 50euro saya. Unless saya nak masuk court. Macam best jek. Kan? Kan? Hoh.

Okay dah. Malas nak layan. Dah la duet Garda tak dapat claim sebab dah terhilangkan resit. 150euro okay. And now I've to pay for this 50euro. Eii nak menangeslah! Tak tak. Relax. Relax.

p/s: Keep myself busy is the key to find my serenity. I find peace in chaos. Always have my prayer. Viel gluck! :)

Lost II

oi. aku serabut lah.lost tapi taktaw what im lost in. dunno either how to put this in words tp im lost. i need someone to talk to tapi..

Okay I wrote this in someone's inbox last 2mins . Halfway to pour all my misery. Halfway je sebab tiba-tiba I lost. Again. Haha. Tak lawak. Untuk mengurangkan degree kejiwangan kepoyoan please consider my post ini macam sampah je. Ini bukan perkara serious. Btw, perlu ke nak tunjuk cool kat orang that I'm heartless? Macam tak.

Inbox sape? Biarlah ia jadi rahsia. Eicey bajet siti nurhaliza plak dah. =__= Tapi memang confirm one of you. Kenapa aku tak jadi send message ni to that particular person? I'm afraid the feedback I'll get tak berjaya buat aku rasa better or maybe making me feel worse ke. Hurm. So better I post this dekat blog ni kan. Tak ramai baca so tak ramai lah jugak yang taw kebengongan aku ni. haha.

Okay saya da takde mood nak post lagi. Will update this entry until I find myself back. Don't judge my act now, I might regret what I'm doing right now.

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Okay saya nak gila rambut cepat panjang! Nak ikat rambut! Nak ikat rambut sekarang jugak! hoh. memang ni entry sampah. So what? I'll do anything that I want right now. Tak perlu pikir if orang rasa I cakap benda sampah sampai nak ikat rambut pon nak tulis dalam blog. Tak perlu pikir what other ppl might think if I post picture camwhoring sorang-sorang ke. I don't give a damn. I'll do anything that want now. Bahahaha. Suka hati I lah. Atleast I do what I want rather than restricted yourself because you afraid of what other ppl might think of you. Hoh. Macam ada orang kesah pon kau nak post apa dyla oi.

nampak tak percubaan I nak ikat rambut walaupon kontot gila kan. Sedih tol. Rimas lah okay rambut nak half half panjang ni! rasa nak tebas abes je. Huh.

Can you see I merapik cam gila now? Nak menjerit!!

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Anyone wanna put a gun here and pull its trigger?

Agak-agak menyampah, blahh. haha

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